heavy sigh

This last incident really brought the realities of what Steven is doing home. I have to stay positive and focus on Steven's safe return. Some days it is tough to stay positive but my struggle is NOTHING compared to Steven's challenges. When I feel down I start to beat myself up, but then I realize I can allow myself to feel my feelings and they will pass, they are normal...the more I fight them, the longer they last so if I spend a few days in the dumps...no harm to anyone else. Keep sending your love!