Sunday, February 21, 2010

Feb. 21, 2001

Good evening. I haven't heard anything from Steven in awhile. I was really feeling down and even anxious, and it was getting worse everyday. A wise person told me to live in healthy denial about any negative thoughts that might be invading my serenity. It really helped to put a stop to wanting to know something and thinking negative thoughts because I wasn't. It began to take me over. I know as a mom this is such a challenging time. Then again, Steven is being so brave and tough! I think it's a mom thing and I get that but suffering helps no one!One day soon, Steven will be home and I'll be all up in his business about school, jobs etc :) Actually, I'll probably be begging him to come over and do his laundry, have dinner,and I'll scratch his the old days. :)

Saturday, February 13, 2010


I have no idea where Steven fits in with all this but this video is very compelling. One Marine tells about almost drowning because he fell face first in an irrigation ditch with his huge pack on. So hard to imagine what they are going through. Makes this mom so anxious.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

heavy sigh

This last incident really brought the realities of what Steven is doing home. I have to stay positive and focus on Steven's safe return. Some days it is tough to stay positive but my struggle is NOTHING compared to Steven's challenges. When I feel down I start to beat myself up, but then I realize I can allow myself to feel my feelings and they will pass, they are normal...the more I fight them, the longer they last so if I spend a few days in the harm to anyone else. Keep sending your love!


Battalion Commander Deployment Message

Families and Friends of 4th LAR,
On January 23, 2010 a suicide bomber blew himself up in the Zherand Kalay bazaar, a town we had occupied only days earlier. Two men, LCpl Jeremy M. Kane and HM2 Xin Qi died of their wounds that day, and Sgt David J. Smith succumbed to his wounds on January 26th. Four other men were wounded – Cpl George O’Sullivan, LCpl Kevin Miller, LCpl Michael Hoey, and LCpl Wilton Nhek.
Our thoughts and prayers go out to the families and friends of our fallen comrades. They are, and will continue to be greatly missed, but certainly not forgotten. We also pray for a speedy recovery of our wounded Marines.
In spite of this attack, the Marines and Sailors of 4th LAR continue to work extremely hard securing the people of Afghanistan from Taliban influence. They have not been deterred from their mission nor have they “given up hope”. We just don’t do that.
The memories of Sgt David Smith, HM2 Xin Qi, and LCpl Jeremy Kane live on in the hearts and minds of Iron Horse Marines and Sailors.

Semper Fidelis

M. S. Martin