Tuesday, July 6, 2010

home for a month now

Steven has been home for a month now. He is working M-F at Pendleton...coming home nights and weekends. He is doing well but a bit more quiet in group settings. All the attention could overwhelm anyone! I am just breathing so much easier...knowing he is out of THERE! The holidays have so much more meaning I must admit. As I think about the last year I am not sure how I made it...just one day at a time. Feels good to breathe full breaths again!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Steven's homecoming was AMAZING!!

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Today is THE day!

A friend who recently greeted her son after returning home from Afghanistan told me it was like holding them for the first time...their birthday all over again. At 4 in the morning I thought I heard the doorbell ring. I jumped out of bed thinking Steven was surprising me - maybe the Marines were coming home early to be stealthy ya know? Turns out it was just my anxiety and excitement about the day ahead. I have been awake ever since, like a woman in labor...pacing...excited...anxious...wanting the baby to hurry up already! I remember the day Steven was born and the first time I held him. They put him in my arms and his eyes popped open,(it startled me actually), and we locked our gaze on each other. He looked at me as if to say, "Oh there you are mommy". I looked at him and realized I had just been part of miracle. He made a scrunchy face that looked exactly like Doug :) I knew we were about to have a grand adventure together. As I hold my son again today, and look in his eyes, I will feel the same awe, the same relief, and the same miracle as the day he was born. I bet he might even make that scrunchy face like his dad. :)

Friday, May 21, 2010


Steven will be home VERY SOON! I can't say the date, officially, but just know I am beyond excited!
I'm worried I won't let him go! It a sure thing I will be crying my eyes out - "bucking up" isn't even an option. I would implode! Reunion pics will be posted as soon as I can!
Woo hoo!

All the "fun" has gone out of it!

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Friday, April 23, 2010

count down!

Steven will be coming home at the end of May! He won't have much time off but at least he'll be HOME. I can't tell you how excited I am. I feel like I will finally exhale when I see him. I thought having him away at boot camp was hard...and it was... but deployment has been really challenging! For me, the really cool thing is that about the time Steven comes home, school will be wrapping up and summer will be here! AAAHHHHHH!
Pictures of his homecoming will be posted here as well as on facebook.
Thanks for being so supportive during this very difficult time.